所以 我喜欢珍妮丝所说的
So, I love what Janice
关于感激的话
had to say about gratitude.
对我来说就是这样
That's what does it for me.
这帮助了我忍受痛苦
That's what helps me endure.
而我有很多理由心存感激
And I have so many reasons to be grateful.
今天 我与一位美丽的妻子及伴侣携手走过人生
Today, I walk through life with a beautiful wife and partner,
以及一个爱我的家庭
a family that loves me
一份让我充满使命感的工作
and a job that fills me with a sense of purpose.
还有在座的你们
And I have all of you.
我还是觉得我不配拥有这一切
I still feel like I don't deserve any of it,
但我逐渐学会了
but I'm getting better and better
拥抱美好的事物 学会放手
at embracing the good things and letting go,
放下过去和那份恐惧
of the past and that fear.
对此 我心存感激
And for that, I'm grateful.
感谢你们的到来和分享
Thank you all for showing up and for sharing.
今晚就到此为止吧
I guess that about wraps it up for tonight.
除非还有人有抑制不住的分享欲正在燃烧?
Unless anybody else has a burning desire to share?
我有些东西想和大家分享
I have something I'd like to share.
好
Great.
我叫阿米尔
My name is Amir.
嗨 阿米尔
Hi, Amir.
我不该出现在这里
And I shouldn't be here.
但我确实在
But I am.
十年前
Ten years ago,
明尼苏达州的一场公寓火灾差点夺走了我的性命
an apartment fire in Minnesota almost took my life.
也曾有时候我希望如此
And there were times I wish it had.
但它夺去了其他148个人的
It did for 148 other people,
包括那位本应该和我
including the one I was supposed
携手走过人生的人
to walk through life with.
她根本没坚持到医院
She never even made it to the hospital.
所以现在我独自行走
So now I walk alone.
而该为这场火灾负责的人
And the one responsible for the fire, well...
他就这么一身轻地离开了
he just walked away.
所以我必须做出选择
So I had a choice to make.
我可以养育我的愤怒和怨恨
I could either nurse my anger and resentment,
或者我可以护理其他人
or I could nurse other people.
以减轻他们的痛苦来减轻我自己的
To ease their suffering as a way to ease my own,
所以我就这么做了 而且它起了作用
so that's what I did, and-and it worked.
它起作用了很长一段时间 但是你知道
It worked for a long time, but you know,
生活是如此的无情
life is such a pitiless thing.
就在你以为一切都受到了控制的时候
Just when you think you have everything under control,
你走在了正确的道路上 这时有些事会发生
that you're on the right path, something can happen
简单的事就像看到一个人的脸
something as simple as seeing one person's face,
然后 突然 在那一瞬间
and then, suddenly, in that instant...
你所经历挣扎的一切
...everything that you have struggled with,
失去 痛苦
the loss, the misery,
恐惧 愤怒
the fear, the anger,
肆虐而起直到它再次将你吞噬殆尽
rages up until it consumes you all over again.
就像火一样
Like a fire.
作为消防员 我们都知道 当铃声响起
As firefighters, we all know that, when that bell sounds,
我们被召唤去执行任务
we're called to duty.
然后我们回应召唤前往现场
And we answer that call.
但是纳什队长 他不需要听到那个铃声
But Captain Nash, he need not hear that bell
来让他执行使命
in order to rise to the occasion.
很显然 他甚至喜欢在下班的时候也这么做
And apparently, he even likes to do it when he's off duty.
这就是为什么我们要向你颁发
Which is why we're presenting to you
我们的英勇荣誉奖 以表彰你的英勇行为
our Honor of Bravery Award in recognition of your bravery
还有你在制服内外的奉献精神
and your dedication both in and out your uniform.
哦 哇 谢谢
Oh, wow. Thank you. Um...
你知道 当你告诉别人你以
You know, when you tell people you run
跑进燃烧的建筑为生的时候
into burning buildings for a living,
他们多会用看疯子的眼神看你
they tend to look at you like you're nuts,
我们可能确实是吧
which we probably are.
但我们知道而他们不知道的是
But the thing that we know that they don't
过着有价值的生活
is that living a life of consequence,
一辈子为公众效力
a life in service,
是多么荣幸
is a privilege.
所以 是的 我会好好珍惜这个奖的
So, yes, I will treasure this.
但我会更珍惜明天
But I'm gonna treasure tomorrow more
因为我可以回去工作了
because I get to get back to work.
谢谢大家
Thank you all.
非常感谢
Thank you so much.
圣保罗 明尼苏达州 1981年
你再英勇一点 这里就没你的地方了 纳什
You get any braver, you're gonna run out of room here, Nash.
是啊 你听到了吗 副局长?
Well, yeah... Did you hear that, Deputy Chief?
是时候给我丈夫加薪了 这样他就能给我们换个大点的房子了
Time to give my husband a raise so he can get us a bigger house.
现在你知道我为什么娶她了
Now you know why I married her.
嘿 提姆 你那是第几杯了
Hey, Tim, how many is that?
现在你知道我为什么要跟她离婚了
And now you know why I'm gonna divorce her.
嘿 妈妈 我能去乔迪家吗
Hey, Mom, can I go to Jody's?
你不觉得你应该先问我
Shouldn't you have asked me that question
再穿上外套吗
before you put on your coat?
你不会对你妈翻白眼了吧
You didn't just roll your eyes at your mother.
没关系 你可以去
It's okay. You can go.
就是等一下
Just, in a minute.
你的小儿子有东西要给你
Your youngest son has something he wants to give you.
-是吗 -嘿 巴比
-Yeah? -Hey, Bobby?
会是什么
What's that?
-给你 爸爸 -哇
-Here, Dad. -Whoa.
给我的?
For me?
这是什么
What's this?
哇哦
Whoa.
这是...
This is...
这挺不错的啊 巴比
This is really something, Bobby.
你肯定花了很大功夫
You must have worked real hard on this.
他经常去图书馆
He's been taking trips to the library,
用他们的复印机
using their Xerox machine.
里面有你救过的所有人
It's got all the people you've saved.
谢谢你 儿子
Thank you, son.
嘿 巴比 也许你可以给我也做一本
Hey, Bobby, maybe you could make me one of those.
是啊 你可以用餐巾纸的背面给他做
Yeah, you could do it on the back of a napkin.
我可以走了吗
Can I go now?
我以为你已经走了
I thought you already did.
哇哦
Wow.
查理
Charlie.
-哦...别这样 -嘿
-Oh... come on. -Hey.
嘿 巴比 帮我拿下杯子 好吗
Hey, Bobby, grab that glass, would you?
好了 好了
There. Okay. There we go.
你猜怎么着
You know what?
喝吧 这是你应得的
Go ahead. You've earned it.
别告诉你妈就行
Just don't tell your mother.
好吧
Okay.
你干了什么
What did you do?
哦 就是...
Oh, it's...
过来 亲爱的
Come here, honey.
家人
Family.
才是最重要的 对吧
That's all that really matters, right?
没错
Right.
鳄梨色拉酱好了
Guacamole is done.
你加柠檬汁了吗
Did you add a squeeze of lemon?
为什么要加柠檬汁?
Why would I do that?
防止酱变成棕色
It keeps it from turning brown.
-那是... -你需要酸度
That's---You need the acidity.
-真的吗 -嗯
-That's a real thing? Mm-hmm.
我们为什么要让他做鳄梨色拉酱
Why did we let him make the guacamole?
这样你就可以专注于处理
So you could focus on that unfortunate
你那里不幸的树皮情况
tree bark situation you got going on there.
-好吧 -哦 枪击警告
-Oh, okay. -Ooh. Shots fired.
哦 他来了 时间正好
Oh, there he is. Just in time.
嗨 巴比
Hi, Bobby.
嘿 梅
Hey, May.
没想到你会来 这是什么场合?
Wasn't expecting you. What's the occasion?
-我有一阵子没见到你们了 -她家里没吃的了
-Well, I haven't seen you guys in a minute. -She ran out of food at her place.
好了 你坐下吧
All right, sit down, you.
-先吃玉米饼 -没错
-Ooh, tortillas first. -I think so.
家人团聚真是太好了
Oh, it's just so good to have the family all together.
好 给你
All right. I got you.
我吵醒你了吗
Oh, did I wake you?
凌晨4点的秘密谷歌搜索?
Secret 4:00 a.m. Google searches?
英俊的一对
Handsome couple.
你认识他们吗
Do you know them?
我害死了她
I killed her.
公寓大楼的火灾吗
The fire at the apartment building?
她是第57号受害者
She was victim number 57.
她根本没坚持到医院
She never even made it to the hospital.
她丈夫告诉我的
Her husband told me that.
-什么时候? -昨天
-When? -Yesterday.
他 呃...
He, uh...
出现在我的戒酒互助会上
showed up at my AA meeting.
这个人从哪儿来的? 我是说 他怎么找到你的?
Where did this man come from? I mean, how did he find you?
呃 也许是神圣力量的干预吧
Uh, divine intervention, maybe.
我在医院把凯瑟琳·莫里斯的女儿
I was bringing Catherine Morris's daughter
带回她身边的时候 他在那里
back to her in the hospital and he was there.
他在烧伤科工作
He works in the burn unit.
然后他什么都没跟你说吗
And he didn't say anything to you then?
我是指 他没有表现出认出你的迹象?
I mean, he gave no indication that he recognized you?
-我想没有 -他在你的戒酒会上干什么?
-I don't think so. -What was he doing at your AA meeting?
-只是巧合吗 -不是
-Was that just a coincidence? -Oh, no.
他是带着目的来的
He came there with a purpose.
他想分享他的悲伤和痛苦
He wanted to share his grief and his pain,
他想让我看看我做了什么
and he wanted me to see what I'd done.
-那你跟他说了什么 -什么也没说
-And what did you say to him? -Nothing.
他在讲发生在他身上的事
He was talking about what had happened to him,
我对他做了什么 我就这么呆住了
what I did to him, and I just froze.
我愣在了座位上无法动弹
I was pinned to my seat, and by the time
而等我找回了方向时 他已经走了
I got my bearings back, he was gone.
好吧 也许这样最好
Okay, well, maybe it's for the best.
我是说 他过来说出
I mean, he got to say
他需要说的话 也许这就够了
whatever it is he needed to, and maybe that's enough.
我觉得还不够
I don't think it's enough.
每当我想起那天晚上 我总是数着尸体数量
When I think about that night, I always count the bodies,
那些逝去的生命 但是...
the lives lost, but...
我从没数过幸存者
I never counted the survivors.
被留在后面的人们
The people left behind.
你在与自己的悲恸抗争
You were battling your own grief.
第九步[12步戒酒法]
Step nine.
”尽自己所能 向他人直接弥补过失”
"Make direct amends to such people wherever possible."
我需要弥补过失
I need to make amends.
我不是病人 我是洛杉矶消防队队长
I am not a patient, I am a Los Angeles City Fire captain.
我只是想和他联系一下
I'm just trying to get in touch with the man.
是的 不 我明白
Yeah, no, I understand.
我会填一份正式的申请表 谢谢
I will fill out a formal request, thank you.
纳什队长? 很高兴见到你
Captain Nash? Good to see you.
-你是来拜访病人的吗? -卡米拉 嗨
-Are you visiting a patient? -Camila, hi.
其实 我是想拜访你的一个同事
Uh, actually, I was trying to visit a coworker of yours.
-你在烧伤科工作吗 -还在重症监护室工作
-Are you working in the burn unit? -Still working ICU.
我们正在把一个病人转移到这里
We're actually transferring a patient up here.
我们的部门间有很多重叠
Our departments have quite a bit of overlap.
-哦 所以你可能认识阿米尔 -哦 天啊 是的
-Oh, so you might know Amir. -Oh, God, yes.
爱他
Love him.
真希望他是我们的全职员工
Wish we had him full-time.
是的 他很好
Yeah. Yeah, he's great. It's--
感觉他刚到这里就已经走了
It feels like he just got here and now he's already gone.
-我知道 旅行护士的生活 -是啊
-I know, the life of a travel nurse. -Right. Yeah.
听着 我本想趁他走之前找到他
Well, listen, I-I was trying to catch him before he left
但看来我错过了他 我以为
but I guess I missed him, and I thought that
人事中介机构可能会帮我联系他
the staffing agency might help me get in touch with him--
别往心里去 他们忙得不可开交
Don't take it personally. They're slammed.
大家都在为护理人员短缺惊慌
Everyone's panicking about a nursing shortage.
他们可能在为阿米尔请了一个月假而生气
They're probably mad at Amir for taking a month off.
我想每个人都需要一个假期 对吧?
Well, I guess everybody needs a vacation, right?
这可算不上我心目中的假期
It's not exactly my idea of a vacation.
哈昆巴?
Jacumba?
那是哪儿?
What's there?
一个移民营地
A migrant encampment.
显然 阿米尔每年都会在一个小组里做几周志愿者
Apparently, Amir volunteers with a group a couple weeks a year
提供食物和医疗援助
that provides food and medical assistance.
好吧 所以他在那里
Okay, so, that's where he is.
你说你想要弥补他
You said that you want to make amends to him,
我理解 但这事肯定可以等他回来再说吧
and I understand that, but surely this can wait until he comes back.
已经有十多年了 我想他等得够久的了
It's been over ten years. I think he's waited long enough.
我会在路上打给你
I will call you from the road.
我爱你
I love you.
我也爱你
I love you, too.
但你已经不是十年前的你了
But you're not the same man you were ten years ago.
我觉得这对他来说不重要
I don't think that matters to him.
我需要这对你重要
I need that to matter to you.
我爱你
I love you.
-你车里有补给品吗 -没有 我是来
-You got supplies in that truck? -No, I'm here
找阿米尔·凯西的 他是个志愿者
looking for Amir Casey. He's a volunteer.
你是谁?
Who's asking?
-我叫巴比 -你是警察吗
-My name's Bobby. -You a cop?
你看起来像个警察
You look like a cop.
不 我是一名消防员
No, I am a firefighter,
但我不是以官方身份来的
but I am not here in an official capacity.
你为什么要找阿米尔
Why are you looking for Amir?
是私事 我只需要跟他谈谈
It's a personal matter. I just need to speak with him.
他两个小时前在这儿
He was here about two hours ago
当他带来最后一批人的时候
when he brought in that last group.
这已经是他今天第三次出去了
That was his third trip today already.
-你知道他什么时候回来吗 -不知道
-Do you know when he might be back? -No idea.
有人告诉他外面有个孕妇
Someone told him there was a pregnant woman out there
和她丈夫 所以他出去找他们了
with her husband, so he's gone out to look for them.
-好的 -这里需要帮助
-Okay. -Need a hand here!
你在哪里找到他们的
Where did you find them?
在12号路的辅路上
On the marker 12 service road.
-阿米尔没和你在一起吗 -没有 我没有他的消息
-Amir's not with you? -No, I haven't heard from him.
我试着用无线电联系过他了
And I tried to call him on the radio.
你能问问她有没有宫缩吗
Can you ask her if she's having any contractions?
没有疼痛 但她有点头晕
No pain, but she's dizzy,
-孩子在踢她 -很好
-and the baby's kicking. Okay, that's good.
她的脉搏很强 但她脱水了
She's got a strong pulse, but she's dehydrated.
能给她打点滴吗
Can we get her on an IV drip?
我们不提供这种援助
We're not that kind of operation,
但我们有摆渡车来往当地的诊所
but we've got a shuttle making runs to a local clinic.
好的 我们把她弄上去
Okay, let's get her on that.
与此同时 我们给她点水
In the meantime, let's get her some water,
好吗 非常感谢
all right? Ah. Thank you very much.
给你
Here you go.
谢谢
Gracias.
好了 我去看看他
All right, let me check on him.
你看起来不像是晒了一整天太阳的人
You do not look like somebody who's been in the sun all day.
不 不好
No, no, no. No bien.
你那里怎么了 我能看看吗
What do you got going on here? Can I take a look? Okay?
好
All right.
他们强迫她一个人走路
They forced her to walk alone,
所以他跳下了行驶中的卡车去陪她
so he jumped off a moving truck to be with her.
好吧 我喜欢你的深情 路易斯
All right, well, I love the sentiment, Luis,
但这伤口感染了 我们得清理干净
but this wound is infected. We gotta clean it out.
这里有过氧化氢
There's hydrogen peroxide in here.
那可能会损伤组织 我们需要水
That might damage the tissue. We need a water.
能再给我一瓶水吗
Can I get another one of those waters?
好了
All right.
我需要一些纱布
I am gonna need some gauze,
还有胶带
and I'm gonna need some tape.
他从什么卡车上跳下来的?
What truck did he jump off of?
-蛇头的吗 -是的
-Coyotes? -Yes.
他们谈好过境的交易
They make a deal to get across,
但一旦过去了 交易内容就变了
but once they get here, the deal changes.
-额外收费 -没错
-Upcharge? -Correct.
这些蛇头现在都是贩毒集团的人了
These coyotes are all cartel now.
价格翻倍 甚至翻三倍
They double, triple the price.
如果交不出钱来 他们就强迫偷渡者走路
If they can't deliver, they force them to walk.
给他们一顿教训 然后就又回来再次威胁他们
Teach 'em a lesson. Then they come back to threaten them again.
除非你们先找到偷渡者
Unless you guys get to them first.
你跟上了
You're catching on.
那些蛇头一定很爱你们
Those coyotes must love you.
在贩毒集团和当地牧场主之间
Well, between the cartel and the local ranchers,
我觉得我们没交上多少朋友
I don't think we've made many friends.
最后一个
Last one.
好了 路易斯 坚持住 好吗
All right, Luis, you stay with me, okay?
我们下车吧
Let's get off this truck.
他快要败血症了
He's on the brink of sepsis.
如果感染扩散到他的血液里
If this infection spreads into his bloodstream,
不会有好结果的
it's not gonna end well.
摆渡车还有多远?
How close is that shuttle?
-大概十分钟后到 -好吧
-About ten minutes out. -All right, well,
如果可以的话 让他们加快速度
if you can, tell 'em to step on it.
你们能把他送到阴凉处吗
Can you guys get him out of the sun?
好 还有她
All right. Her, too?
你知道阿米尔走的是哪条路吗
Do you know which one of these roads Amir travels?
我知道 但你一个人出去简直是疯了
I do, but you'd be crazy to go out there on your own.
我也没有人能和你一起去
And I don't have anyone to send with you.
-阿米尔也一个人在外面啊 -他熟悉地形
-Oh, Amir's out there on his own. -He knows the terrain.
他也确实有点疯
And he's a little crazy.
我会把地址写给你
I'll write you the directions.
谢谢
Thank you.
现在刚周日早上八点
It's 8:00 a.m. on a Sunday,
你就已经醉得不省人事了
and you're already sloppy drunk.
再喝点酒就好了
Just a little hair of the dog.
这就是我们要离开的原因 提姆
This is why we're leaving, Tim.
-嘿 -你太过分了
-Hey -You've gone too far.
我不会进去的
I wouldn't go in there.
我很担心孩子们
I am worried about the boys--
我的个天呐 安
God on a wheel, Ann.
那是几周前的事了
That was weeks ago.
他就喝了一口 好吗
And it was one drink, okay?
我像他这么大的时候
You know, when I was his age,
我在红猫头鹰酒吧后面偷了好几箱3.2度啤酒呢
I was stealing cases of 3.2 out of the back of the Red Owl.
你为什么把这个故事说得好像很好笑一样?
Why do you tell that story like it's supposed to be funny?
-因为就是很好笑 -一点都不好笑!
-Because it is funny. -It's not funny!
你就是没有幽默感!
You just don't have a sense of humor!
发生什么了?
What's happening?
嘿 伙计
Hey, bud.
-巴比 你的书包呢? -伙计
-Bobby, where's your book bag? -Buddy.
巴比 去拿过来然后
Bobby, go grab it and get
-上车 就现在 -不 你不用
-in the car right now. -No, you're good.
我们要去什么地方吗
We're going somewhere?
我们要去你凯蒂阿姨家住
We're going to stay at your Aunt Kitty's.
不 你可以去跟凯蒂阿姨住
No, you can go stay with Aunt Kitty.
你不能带走我的孩子们
You're not gonna take my boys.
因为他们? 他们是我的
'Cause them? They're mine.
我的遗产
My legacy.
-你不能带走他们 -爸 别说了
-And you're not gonna take them. -Dad. Stop.
-这样没用 -这就是问题所在
-This isn't helping. -That is exactly the problem.
-长本事了 -我不希望他们学你的样子
-Big man. Yeah. -I don't want them following in your footsteps.
先是喝酒 然后可能
First to the bottle. Then probably
-提前踏入坟墓 巴比 -是吗
-to an early grave. Bobby. Oh, yeah?
-拿上你的包 上车 -不
-Get your bag and get in the car. No.
我想和爸爸在一起
I want to stay with Dad.
巴比 别犯傻了 快上车
Bobby, stop being an idiot and get in the car.
你们为什么总是对爸爸这么刻薄?
Why are you always so mean to Dad?
-问得好 年轻人 -亲爱的
-That is an excellent question, young man. -Sweetheart,
我知道这对你来说很难理解 你爱你爸爸
I know this is really hard to understand. You love your dad.
他是个英雄!
He's a hero!
你再多管闲事
You stick your nose any further
-拍老爸的马屁 你不是... -查理!
-up Dad's ass, you're not -Charlie!
-怎么了? -别说了
-What?! -Just don't.
他明天又不会记得
It's not like he's gonna remember tomorrow.
他喝得太多了
He's too drunk.
你给我放尊重点
Show some respect.
-你先放尊重点 爸 -是吗?
-You first, Dad. -Oh, yeah?
-提姆! -你打算怎么办 大块头
-Tim! -What are you gonna do, big guy?
查理 停下
Charlie, stop!
-那是我儿子! -查理 停下!
-That's my son! -Charlie, stop!
告诉妈妈你也不想走
Tell Mom that you don't want to go, either.
如果我们都留下
If we both stay,
也许她也会
maybe she will, too.
你看到他刚对我做了什么 你还想让我留下?
You saw what he just did to me, and you still want me to stay?
跟我们走吧
Come with us.
爸爸需要我
Dad needs me.
嘿
Hey.
放下撬棍
Drop the tire iron.
阿米尔
Amir...
是巴比·纳什
it's Bobby Nash.
纳什?
Nash?
你在这里干什么
What the hell are you doing here?
我在找你 发生什么了?
I'm looking for you. What happened?
-我中枪了 -坐下
-I got shot. -Sit down.
来吧 坐下
Come on, sit down.
好
All right.
把这个脱掉
Get this off.
好了
All right.
子弹碎片还在里面
Bullet fragment is still in there.
好的 我们得把它清理干净
All right, we're gonna need to clean this out,
做一些压力敷料
make some kind of pressure dressing
在我们做其他事之前
before we do anything else.
在这里感染的进程会很快
Infection could set in real quick out here.
是的 我知道
Yeah. I'm aware.
我是个医学专家 记得吗
I'm a medical professional, remember?
只是我自己一个人很难做到
Was having a hard time doing it myself.
现在你不用了
Well, now you don't have to.
你要找的那对夫妇
The couple you were looking for here--
他们回到你们的集结地了
they made it back to your group staging area.
我觉得他们会没事的
I think they're gonna be fine.
我需要你告诉我发生了什么
I want you to tell me what happened.
看来你已经知道这里发生了什么
Seems like you already know what happened here.
我在外面找那对夫妇
I was out here looking for that couple.
我在检查建筑物
I was checking out the structures,
留下补给 我听到一辆卡车停了下来
leaving supplies. I heard a truck pull up.
我出去了
I went outside.
看到我的车被燃烧弹炸了
I saw my vehicle was being firebombed.
我猜你对此有故事要说
I'm guessing you had something to say about that.
当然 我阻止了他
I certainly did. I got to him
在他拔出枪之前... 差一点
before he pulled his gun... almost.
虽然把他打得很惨 但他还是开走了
Got him pretty good, though, but he was able to drive off.
好了 我需要你身体向前倾
All right, I'm gonna need you to lean forward.
坚持住
Hang in there.
开枪打你的那个人?
That guy that shot you?
-怎样? -他没能走多远
-Yeah? -He didn't get very far.
我在一英里外看到了他
I saw him about a mile back.
他死了
He's dead.
好吧 我们只能包扎成这样了
All right. That is about as good as we're gonna do
在我们送你到医院之前
until we get you to a hospital.
我们走
Let's go.
-来吧 -我自己可以
-Come on. -I got it.
看来我们哪儿也去不了了
Looks like we're not going anywhere.
晚餐吃什么?
What is for dinner?
索尔兹伯里牛排?
Salisbury steak?
炸鱼和薯条
Fish and chips.
是吗
Oh.
我以为你喜欢炸鱼和薯条
I thought you liked fish and chips.
我是喜欢
I do.
我只是会想念那块布朗尼的
I'm just gonna miss that brownie.
我买了饼干面团
I got us cookie dough.
没人喜欢那种水果馅饼
Nobody likes that watery cobbler.
哦 你
Oh, you.
你真是个好人
You're a good man.
吃饭吧
Let's eat.
好
Yes.
谢谢
Thank you.
妈妈打电话来了
Mom called.
她想跟你谈谈
She wanted to talk to you.
你告诉她我在工作了吗
Did you tell her I was working?
她已经打电话到消防局找你了
She'd already called the firehouse looking for you.
他们告诉她你病了
They told her you were sick.
他们为什么要告诉她我病了?
Why would they tell her something like that?
我想你现在应该在值班
I guess you were supposed to be on shift.
哦 该死
Oh, damn it.
今天不是星期一 对吧
It's not Monday, is it?
星期二 我告诉他们你病了
Tuesday. I told them you were sick.
抱歉 孩子
Sorry, kid.
没事的 爸爸
It's okay, Dad.
好了 他们终于要走了
All right. They're finally leaving.
他们是用燃烧弹炸了你的车 还是直接偷了?
They firebombing your vehicle or just stealing it?
直接偷了
Just stealing it.
你在这里做什么 纳什
What are you doing out here, Nash?
我告诉过你 我在找你
I told you, I was looking for you.
为什么
Why?
第九步 我欠你一个补偿
The ninth step, I owe you an amends.
所以你就跟着我来到了沙漠?
So you followed me out here to the desert?
是的
Yeah.
你觉得这能让你得到什么?
You think that earns you something?
不 我只是想让你知道我听到了你说的一切
No, I just needed you to know I heard everything you said.
谢谢
Thank you.
我觉得被人看见了
I feel seen.
当然 我总是觉得自己被看见了
Of course, I always feel seen.
主要是因为人们总是盯着我看
Mostly because people are always staring at me.
我知道我说什么都无法弥补发生的一切
I know that there is nothing I can say to make up for what happened.
停下
Stop!
让我把话说清楚 队长
Let me be real clear, Captain.
我不需要你给我任何东西
I don't need anything from you.
我知道你以为我去了那个会议是来指责你
I know you think I came to that meeting to call you out.
我不是
I didn't.
我是在评估你
I was sizing you up.
我是想弄明白
I wanted to understand
一个要为这么多损失和痛苦
how someone who was responsible for so much loss,
负责的人
so much pain,
怎么能够继续生活下去
was able to carry on.
看起来挺简单的
Pretty damn easy, it seems.
不是的
That's not actually true.
不是吗
No?
我也听到你说的一切了 巴比
I heard everything you said, too, Bobby.
说你有多幸运
Talking about how blessed you've been.
这就是我站起来的原因
That's why I stood up.
我觉得需要一个答案
I felt that required an answer.
我理解
I get that.
很好 那听好了
Good. Now get this.
你可以留着你的补偿
You can keep your amends.
我没要求它
I didn't ask for it.
而且对我来说这毫无意义
And doesn't mean a damn thing to me.
西边八英里处有一条辅路
There's a service road about eight miles west.
贩毒集团不怎么用它 当地人用得多
The cartels don't really use it. The locals do.
过了大约两英里就是高速公路了
About two miles past there is the highway.
你走到那么远
You get that far,
一定会有人能来接你的
someone will be sure to pick you up.
我该怎么办 就把你留在这吗
What am I supposed to do, just leave you here?
那人不是你杀死的 是我
You didn't kill the man, I did.
-你当时没有选择 -我没说我有
-You didn't have a choice. -I didn't say I did.
好吧
Okay.
你得站起来 我们得走过去
You need to get up, and we need to walk.
说实话...
Honestly...
我觉得我做不到 纳什
I don't think I can, Nash.
感染已经开始发作了
This infection is already starting to set in.
那让我扶你起来好吗
Then will you let me help you up?
我不知道哪个更糟
I mean, I don't know what's worse,
在阴影里死去
dying out here in the shade,
还是让你来救我
or letting your ass save me?
鉴于目前的情况
Well, given where things are at,
我很有可能会失败
there's a pretty good chance I'll fail.
是啊 现在你只是想让我振作起来
Yeah, now you're just trying to cheer me up.
来吧
Come on.
我们走
Let's walk.
这里是911 你有什么紧急情况
我家厨房起火了
请稍等 派遣消防队中 请问你的名字和地址?
巴比·纳什 肯特路112号
你是说纳什吗?
-爸爸 醒醒 -让我试试
-Dad, Dad, wake up! -Ah, let me try.
这招通常都管用
That usually does the trick.
菲尔?
Phil?
你在这里做什么?
What are you doing here?
看起来像是有人想用烤箱做饼干
Looks like someone was trying to make cookies using the broiler.
对不起 爸爸
I-I'm sorry, Dad.
你可能需要一个新炉子了
You're probably gonna need a new stove.
剩下的就只用油漆和一些苦力活
I think the rest is just paint and some elbow grease.
我会收拾干净的
I-I'll clean it up.
-我保证 -我打赌你会的
-I promise. -Bet your ass you will.
嘿 这不是孩子的错
Hey, it's not the kid's fault
这里没有灭火器
there's no fire extinguisher in here.
不 那是他妈的错
No, that would be his mother's fault.
她一直不喜欢它的样子
She always hated the looks of it,
所以我把它放在了后门廊上
so I keep it on the back porch.
所以她因此得到了一个新厨房
So, she gets a new kitchen out of it.
这应该能让她回来
That should bring her back.
你完事了吗
You done here?
是的 我们结束了
Yeah, we're done.
我可以把它修好
I-I can fix this.
你知道打911会怎么样吗
Do you know what happens when you call 911?
他们会留记录
They keep a record of it.
你觉得这看起来像什么样 嗯?
How do you think that's gonna look? Hmm?
-对不起 -如果我被炒了
-I-I'm sorry. -If I get fired,
都是你的错
it's your fault.
我现在都不想看见你
I don't even want to look at you right now.
你应该和你妈妈一起走的
You should've gone with your mother.
起来
Get up.
-就是这样 我到此为止了 -你还没有
-This is it, I'm done. -You're not done.
来吧 我想我看到了前面有条路
Come on, I think I see a road up ahead.
是啊 老兄 你两英里以前也是这么想的
Yeah, man, you thought that two miles back.
嘿 你得起来 我们得继续走
Hey, you have to get up, we have to keep moving.
听着 你和我一样清楚 我走的每一步
Look, you know as well as I do, every step I take
只会把感染加深到我的身体里
just pushes this infection deeper in my system.
起来
Get up.
来吧
Come on.
好了 好
All right, all right.
来吧
Come on.
看到了吗 我告诉过你有条路
See? I told you there was a road.
来吧
Come on.
我们能行的
We got it.
嘿
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!
停车 停车
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop!
停 来吧 他停下来了
Stop! Come on, he's stopping, he's stopping.
你们俩在这里干什么?
What the hell are you doing out here?
我们有点迷路了
We're a little lost.
我也这么觉得
I'll say you are, too.
你们是什么人 救援人员吗
What are you? Relief workers?
我们这也只有这几种人了
That's about all we got out here.
贩毒集团 移民和救援人员
Cartel, migrants and relief workers.
还有几个顽固的老农场主
And a few old stubborn ranchers
就比如我
like myself.
他们叫我赫尔曼
They call me Herman.
我是巴比 这是阿米尔 我们确实是
I'm Bobby, this is Amir, and that's exactly what we are.
-我们是救援人员 -这样吧
-We're relief workers. -I'll tell you what.
我家离这不远
My place ain't too far.
我有座机和短波无线电
I got a landline and a short wave,
如果有需要 能让我联络上警长
connects me to the sheriff if need be.
听起来不错 只要能让我们离开这个沙漠就行
Sounds good. Anything to get us off this desert.
好了 来吧 进来
All right, come on. Climb in.
地板上有水
I got some water on the floorboard.
请自便
Help yourself.
给你 我们非常感谢
Here you go. We really appreciate this.
今天太漫长了
It's been a long day.
你们说你们是从哪里来的?
Where'd you boys say you were coming from?
我们没说
We didn't.
9号公路 你知道那家老餐馆在哪吗
Highway 9, you know where that old diner is?
路途挺遥远的
It's quite the hike.
确实 这里有很多人走过比这还远的路
Yeah, well, lot of folks out here have walked further than that.
是啊 但他们的身体里没带着子弹
Yeah, but they don't have a slug in them.
我猜你中枪了 朋友
I'm guessing you've been shot, my friend.
是 不过你应该看看另一个人
Yeah, well, you should see the other guy.
那是你和你儿子吗
Is that you with your son?
不 那是我孙子
No, that's my grandson.
米格尔
Miguel.
他是我的全部
He's my world.
他的父亲 我的儿子
His father, my boy,
他五年前去世了
he passed about five years ago.
-我很遗憾 -毒品
-Sorry to hear that. -Drugs.
越过边境的不止是人
People ain't the only thing coming across the border.
嘿 你们上次吃东西是什么时候?
Hey, when's the last time you fellas had something to eat?
他们会在他家等着我们
They're going to be waiting for us at his place.
你会说西班牙语?
You speak Spanish?
我听得懂
I understand it.
但我不懂的是你为什么要和他做生意
What I don't understand is why you're in business with him
他们的毒药害死了你的儿子
when their poison killed your son?
我儿子做出了自己的选择
My son made his own choices.
你的孙子也做出了他的选择
And your grandson made his.
我们都有选择
Well, we all have choices.
停车
Stop the truck.
巴比
Bobby!
巴比 开门
Bobby, open up.
-来吧 -走开!
-Come on. -Go away!
别这样
Come on.
我说了对不起
I said I'm sorry.
我知道这是个意外
I know it was an accident.
饶了...饶了你老爸吧
Give... give your old man a break.
好吗?
Okay?
拜托 我不能让你也生我的气
Come on. I can't have you mad at me, too.
巴比?
Bobby?
嘿 巴比 我找到你的书了
Hey, Bobby, I found your book.
我想我们可以修好它
I think we can fix it.
看 这会...很容易修
See, this is gonna be--It's gonna be real easy to fi--
阿米尔 嘿
Amir, hey.
阿米尔?
Amir?
嘿 嘿
Hey, hey, hey.
阿米尔 阿米尔
Amir, Amir!
好了 我带你离开这里
All right, I'm gonna get you out of here.
坚持住 坚持住
Come on, just hang on. Hang on.
坚持住
Just hang on!
好了 阿米尔
All right, Amir.
爸爸
Dad?
爸爸
Dad?
爸爸?
Dad?
爸爸 醒醒!
Dad, wake up!
醒醒!
Wake up!
爸爸 醒醒!
Dad, wake up!
求你了 我需要你!
Please! I need you!
求你了 醒醒!
Please, wake up!
求你了 爸爸
Please, Dad.
醒醒!
Wake up!
没事了 纳什队长
It's all right, Captain Nash.
我们来了
We got you.
有我们在
We all got you.
-给你 队长 -谢谢你
-Here, Cap. -Oh, thank you.
你不觉得你应该留下来过夜吗
Don't you think maybe you should stay the night?
让医生来照顾你
Let the doctors take care of you.
医生会开液体处方
The doctors are gonna prescribe fluids,
非甾体消炎药 防止肿胀
NSAIDs to prevent swelling
还有抗组胺药 如果我皮肤开始发痒的话
and an antihistamine if my skin starts to itch,
这些我都可以自己做
all of which I can do myself.
我一直听说医生们是最糟糕的病人
I always heard it was doctors who were the worst patients.
说这话的人是没见过消防员
Well, whoever said that never met a firefighter.
-巴比 -哦
-Bobby? -Oh!
谢天谢地你没事
Thank God you're okay.
就像我在电话里说的 我很好
Like I said on the phone, I'm fine.
我还是得亲眼看看
Well, I still needed to see it for myself.
好吧
All right.
费尔南达 这是我妻子 阿西娜
Fernanda, this is my wife, Athena.
她是个警察
She is a cop.
是你找到他的
Oh. You're the one that found him.
我不确定我有没有
I'm not sure I have
在这个时候合适的话来说谢谢
the right words at this moment to say thank you.
不只是我
Wasn't just me.
阿米尔从蛇头手里救出来的那些人?
Those people that Amir saved from the coyotes?
他们坚持要去找他
They insisted on going to find him.
我只是跟着他们
I just went along for the ride.
以及想出了如何找到我们
And figured out how to find us.
我们在餐厅看到了血迹
Eh, we saw the blood at the diner.
我想你们会抄近路穿过辅路
Figured you'd cut across the service road.
我们找到卡车后
Once we found the truck,
很快就找到了你们俩
it didn't take long to get to the two of you.
-嗯 -我看见他们把
-Mm. -I saw them towing in
卡车的残骸拖进来了
what was left of the truck.
真不敢相信居然没人死
I can't believe nobody was killed.
赫尔曼
Well, Herman.
警察没告诉你吗
The police didn't tell you?
我们找到你们后不久 他们就找到了赫尔曼
They found Herman not long after we found you.
肋骨和肩膀骨了折 但他还活着
Some broken ribs and a fractured shoulder, but he's alive.
我没看到他被带进来
Well, I never saw him brought in.
他们把他送到了另一家医院
They flew him to another hospital.
一个有安全病房的
One with a secure ward.
他被警方拘留了?
He's under police custody?
他似乎掌握了很多贩毒集团的信息
Seems he has a lot of information on the cartel
他愿意分享的东西
that he's willing to share.
那是他吗
Is that him?
是的
Yeah.
我需要点时间
I'm gonna need a minute.
我以为你早就走了
I thought you'd be long gone by now.
和你的漂亮老婆一起回家
Back home with that pretty wife of yours.
我只是想先来看看你
I just wanted to check on you first.
你做出了补偿 纳什
You made your amends, Nash.
你救了我的命
You saved my life.
你可以走了
You can go now.
不是这样运作的
That's not exactly how it works.
请告诉我你不会一直回来
Please tell me you're not gonna keep coming back here
直到我原谅你 因为那不是...
until I forgive you, because that's n--
我不指望你的原谅
I don't expect your forgiveness.
这不是我来找你的原因
That's not why I came looking for you.
我想让你知道...
I wanted you to know...
我没有就那么一身轻地离开那场大火
...I didn't just walk away from that fire.
从那以后 我日日夜夜都背负着它
I've carried it with me every day and night since.
我知道我无法抹去这些伤害
And I know that there's nothing I can do to erase the damage
我对你和其他家庭所做的一切
I've done to you or any of those other families.
我不能把你妻子还给你
I can't give you back your wife.
我不能带走你的痛苦
I can't take away your pain.
我只能告诉你 我每天都在想着他们
All I can do is tell you that I think of them every day.
阿雅娜·凯西
Ayana Casey.
34岁
34 years.
玛莎和贾马尔·哈里斯的独女
Only child of Martha and Jamal Harris.
阿米尔·凯西的爱妻
Beloved wife of Amir Casey.
第57个死于那场火灾的人
The 57th person to die in that fire
都是因为我
because of me.
你真的觉得你值得拥有第二次机会吗
Do you really think you deserve this second chance?
我不觉得
I do not.
那天晚上我应该死在那场大火里
I should've died in that fire that night.
或者之后的某个 我试图纠正这个错误的晚上
Or one of the many nights after, trying to correct that mistake.
但我还在这里
But I'm still here.
不能让事情变得更好 所以我过我的生活
Can't make anything better, so I live my life
只是努力尝试不让事情变得更糟
just trying not to make anything worse.
我是卖车的
I sold cars.
在一切发生之前
Before.
在那晚幸存下来之后
And after surviving that night,
我觉得我应该做点别的
I felt I should do something else.
更有意义的事
Something more.
去回报你的第二次机会
To repay your second chance.
去做那晚我做不到的事
To do what I couldn't do that night.
每次我走进医院大门...
Every time I walk through those hospital doors...
我只是想救我的妻子
...I'm just trying to save my wife.
我忍不住想知道
And I can't help but wonder
你一直想要拯救的人是谁
who it is you've been trying to save,
队长?
Captain?
跟你妈妈谈过了
Spoke to your mom.
她在来的路上
She's on her way here.
可能要花点时间
Might take her a little while.
你想和我们一起去消防站吗
You want to come to the firehouse with us?
不 我没事
No, I'm okay.
你想让我们其中一个陪着你直到她过来吗
You want one of us to stay with you until she gets here?
不用
No.
我很为你难过 巴比
I'm real sorry, Bobby.
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